And then I looked up at the sun
smiled and said “Look at that hon”
But honey was nowhere to be found
It was a smile post an era
Funny how I always thought
With the drinking you do
Your liver would be the one to make us do apart
Never thought it would be your lung
We went through the stages together
You, cancer, me grief
You were relieved from it though
Put out of misery like an old dog
And here I was, with a bigger dose of grief
I had all and then most of you
Some and now none of you
Idk if it’s funny, sad or just the reality
Most of the time I’m sad, sad about missing you
Other times I’m numb
And the rare times when I do smile
looking at something like the sunrise right now
I see by my side to tell you
only to not find you here
Funny how I get you now
I get how the bottle made you numb
And I hope to meet you sooner or later
I don’t sleep a lot
But dream with my eyes open
Of a universe where you and I are together
I still leave you a plate
Maybe it’s the drugs hon
But I sure as hell can see you now
The doc said if I keep taking these drugs
They’ll take me to you in hell
Let’s face it hon
We both know heaven’s not for us
We were always a little too naughty
The doc’s wrong though
These take me to you now
I see you on the chair
Maybe I’m going mad
Or maybe it’s the drugs
Does it really fucking matter
As long as we’re together
As long as I can tell you about the day
It’s not your lips
your hips
or your tits
I miss
It’s not the smile
the charm
the nose
the eyes
God you always had those devil eyes
Could see through mine
Look In my soul
It’s this hon
It’s the talking
the sharing
the pairing
That I miss
The best friend in you
As long as the drugs
Get me this for the night
I’ll meet you soon hon
The drugs are strong
Some night would be our last night.
About the author
Piyush is a pretentious bullshitter (his words, not mine) who posts random shit on Instagram. And some days, when he’s had too much whiskey, he blurts out these poems or passages.